It's Been 8 Days.

... since I last posted. I've been soooo bleh. Don't wanna do anything. Especially if it deals with Thailand. The more I fill out those papers and the more I have to actually get ready, my heart feels so heavy. I guess I'm just scared of all the bad things, but then, life is full of bad things.

Thailand bit: Hopefully I can go home this weekend and have my parents fill out my financial papers. AND I know that I am most likely NOT going to receive the scholarship, so I need to break it slowly to my parents. Like... 'Mom, Dad, I need $3,000.' I hope that goes well. I know my mom will go on about how I brought this upon myself, and how come I thought of this Thailand idea. I'm always thinking of ideas, right? :P

Well, I still have to make my visa. I'm pretty much done. OH, and buy my plance ticket to LAX. Oh strawberry gods! Help me through this.

Well, I ALMOST did not go to class today. But I did. Girls, you know those days when you feel icky and bloated because of your lovley tummy? Yah, it was one of those days. I made it through 2 classes, 4 hours of sitting. Still. Just there. Like. This. Yap, I made it through.

Anyways, I keep listening to Potato's new single. It's acutally calming. Like... I have no clue what Pup is singing, but hey, who else doesn't right? Go boys!!!

And my phone has been acting weird. It won't let me download pictures that was messaged to me. OH! And I hope I get to go see Num Sornram this Friday. I WISH. If I do, I'll post pictures. If I don't, I won't. Simple. :P ehhehe.

Take care my lovelys.

I'm Scurrrrr.

Thailand bit: I took my photo thingy this Saturday, so I'mma send that tomorrow to the program. The financial aid probably got my paper, but I'm going back again to make sure. RANGSIT HASN'T ACCEPTED ME YET! I'm going crazy. I leave in like.... 6 weeks. I STILL NEED TO DO MY VISA. I'm soooo going to die. I'll need money for my visa, for my ticket to SF airport, and then to finish out my whole balance. I'll really die. I'm only 20 years young and I'm already in so much shit load of debt. Butta, happy thoughts. Happy thoughts. Oh, gosh, if there is a gosh. I need hlep. Major. Ahhhh!

Today I really did do homework all day. Finished a 7-page, started with my other 2-page. Did a lot of reading on Thailand too. Lotts of reading on Qin Shi Huangdi. I learned a lot today, so I'm content. Gotta go cry. bleh.

Take care my lovelys.

*Tired*

Thailand bit: I realized the due date for the whole program payment is coming up. *BOOM* I haven't thought on how I was gonna finance it. Smart, huh? Well, I thought the the scholarship I sign up would help, but I shouldn't rely on something I don't have. If I get it that would be nice, but I have to think like a realist. I can always take out loans. I'm good at that. Going to a private, expensive college, I'm a pro at that. This is stressing me out, but I have to face it head on, face it forward.

Anyways, I still need to take my photo for the program. Rangsit International College hasn't accepted me yet as a student, so.... I can't think past that. I'm sad. Take me in Rangsit!!!

Today at dinner there was this dish, something Ratouille. I was like... 'they cooked the rat!' hehehehee. It was so funny. My roomy was like, 'this is Ratouille!' Sho is. ehehehhee. That was a great joke. Who knew my cafeteria can be so funny. Well, yeah, the meals they prepare... I shoulda remembered right? And the way they hawk eye everyone walking in. And how they charge us and won't let us use our meal ticket for other guests. Butt cracks. hehehee.

I have a paper tomorrow. I already did 4 pages of the requirement, but I want to do the 6 one. I have a lot to say when it comes to personal experience you know? I just say a lot of nothing. ehehhee. Good night.

Take care my lovelys.